Cruiseships, Freightships, R-ships

So i didn't really think I would take this blog to this level, but I think I give myself permission to go there! Go WHERE? R-ships... they sometimes lead you no-where, they sometimes take you everywhere, but you want to get on the one that takes you to the right place. I did't think I wanted to talk about relationships because this is a public blog and people who read it pretty much know who I am... But a the end of the day, I really dont care.

Going back to R-ships. I love thinking of words, deconstructing it, and rethinking it. Relation SHIP... R-ship. Its such a fitting name. R-ships are a vessel that navigate you through interactions with people. They can sink, they can float, they can go fast, or be a loooooooong ride. they can be rocky, or steady. you do the wrong thing and you will ROCK the BOAT. They come in all shapes and sizes. and as i said, at some point you start to look for one that is taking you in the right direction.

For me, I've had good and bad experiences with R-ships, but what I noticed most was that they have all taught me a great lesson and about myself. I'm sure you're expecting me to say I have learned something noble like XYZ, but what I really learned was that I'm still really not ready for one. I'm still really selfish, needy, attention seeking, etc. I'm still not emotionally advanced. I still react to my life long baggage. I still really have a short attention span, am aggressive(which people say is bad for a woman to be), am dominating (again supposedly bad for a woman to be), and I love they way I am. Of course I have really positive characteristics too... so i've heard... so I wont toot my own horn.

Anyway, I have so many things I want to accomplish and only ever met ONE man that could have ever possibly put up with me and love me for my quirky behavior, sweet charms, and crazy faults. lol! And that wonderful person came at a time when I was not in a position to really accept it. I know this because even today, he is one of the few people I can depend on for anything and that I can trust with things so personal.

Anyway enough about him and more about me...lol. I really think that I enjoy being single right now. I hear from nosy status Quo
Nigerians that i should be looking, I should be settling down. umm.... sorry! I dont want to look! I dont want to settle. I dont want to get weighed down with someone for the rest of my life that i will grow to love less and less and decide to hate more and more...

Id rather take time to live my life, enjoy, and let someone FIND ME!!! That person I will knwo because they will have a strong enough impact on my life to make me want to be accomodating of them, that I will want to wake up with them and love them for their own fine qualities, flaws and all! When God brings that person and I together, and only then, will you guys see me do that 180.

And I actually recommend this to all women that are not as adamant about societal goals, but are more focused on personal/professional goals, and finding completel happiness. This means, if you are the type that want to stay home and raise a family and be the best housewife, or you are the type that has career goals and wants to be an entreprenurual woman, etc, then you better FIND A MAN THAT FITS THAT GOAL!!!!!

you cant get with a man that wants you to stay at home if you are an out and about type. You cant sit in the house and sew baby clothes for your children if you have a husband that expects the wife to be as professionally active as he is.
I know people say love conquers all, but sometimes differences in future goals conquers love. I mean, look at the divorce rate. I really think people need to think about what they themselves want in life and how they can achieve that, and they should be very open about it and let people know that that is what they want and that they are looking for someone who whats that too!

Be honest upfront! if you are honest upfront, and you both realize that you are headed in the same direction from jump, then you can get to know if the rest fits (rest meaning personality traits, and of course physical is what you see first, etc) adn if they are the one you should get into a relationship with.

I am of the "Love grows" camp. And like a flower, the only way it can flourish is if you have the proper environment. This proper environment is commong goals, common morals, etc. not neccesarily common interests, because over time, you two will introduce eachother to new and different tihngs and help eachother grow more knowledgeable about the world. I do believe there should be common faith... because you two should help eachother grown strong in your faith, whatever it is. I believe I need a God-fearing man to be with because through faith is how we will make it through the rough patches.

But common goals means that through those rough patches, we are headed in the same directions, runnign same pace, not hindering eachother.

I also ... my own personal thing, like a man I can look up to.. physically, mentally, and personally. I love someone that I can be prouI too get inspired to be the best I can be because he tried each day to be the best he can be for his family. I see that in men that are responsible, and take responsibility for their actions, their family, and work related affairs.

I dont know really if any of this will be helpful to someone, or annoy someone, but it has been theraputic for me. It has really let me release like I'm talking to friend about it. Anyway enough rambling... time for bed. Goodnight future love of my life as you are out there someowhere. May God continue to bless you in all you do and protect you as you continue to move forward and as you continue to make yourself worth for my. He will guide you as you search for me, and He will continue to work in me to make me a worthy wife for you! In Jesus name I pray! Amen!

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